had nv felt so guilty? a sense of betrayal? apologetic? towards a fren. Cos said fren has too big a heart-there was no hint of anger or annoyance, a bit of disappointment perhaps, but no intention of blaming us as far as i could see. Whole lot of us jus deserted said fren, leaving him up there alone, a clown on stage, but in fact a real solid character in life. We cowards(yes we). Will nv forget that.

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Camp broke yesterday. Consisted of prac(S) and games. Getting old i suppose-physical games r tiring and trying. 2 late nights spent with mates on cards and ktv, exhausting but nice. other than that, there was also plenty of touching dizi and score drilling; aside, couldnt reali remember wad was done... eating, sleeping? Oh, reali bad sleep first nite-muz be due to excitement and change of bed- kept hearing birds and crickets. Oh, heard a marvellous duet by 2 birds at 7plus second mornin in bed-it sounded oddly like the concerto opening we r currently practising, initially. Rhythm goes like X- X- X- 0 X X X.

many things happened, come to think of it. But all in a mess still. Have to wait a few days for things to settle. Saw a fren cry-shocking, din noe how to respond. Two poor sensitive souls, hurting each other without meaning to.

but one thing is, my twins r marvellous-we share the same bday, aint tt amazing?