looked back randomly onto old posts as i was changing template and stuff, and am amazed at how chatty i was in the past- strings and strings of words that ramble out of the fingertips and drum onto the letter pads onto screen- now all that is lost- jus a few unstrung words that manage to disentagle themselves from the heap of reactions and colors and sounds that jumble around in the mishmash of grey and white matter.

cant even give a proper laugh. a groggy mind gives rise to dementiated muscles.

miss the old days