我看见你我很开心哈哈

tmr concert liao, at long last. Shld be doing lab now, but can only play games-too ill-disciplined and unenergetic. But lucky streak-kept winnin!

j experiencing mid-life crisis- lethargy and chronic aches, crumbling. dunno how to help. Help. Wonder what would it be like if i've taken life sciences, or if we had gone to huayue tg... k, besides pissing ourselves off to death, think i would be more violent, impatient, outspoken, in short a bigger manifestations of the characteristics in jc. She? or maybe both of us wld jus slip into the abyss. Maybe we wld be happier? i dunno, but to think that sthg that could have happened so easily did not, its ... fascinating.(?)

it was hard- that transitional period. Felt i lost sthg, suddenly no classroom and lunch partners and snack-storing/gobbling/yao gui buddy. In place was new chemical theories i nv knew i could understd, scary ambitious and cold pple, and a sudden kai qiaoing of the mind. Saw how slow i was( still am), trying to grasp new knowledge and events and survival skills. Of course there were nice pple, but somehow couldnt reali trust them. Wldnt tell them the true heart and soul-some plastic sheet there, invisible but there. AND masks, layers and layers of them, behind which lie the old anger and spitfire and brashness and intolerance- all there, still there, but smothered to varying degrees, there nevertheless. Can sometimes feel them creeping out slowly sometimes, BUt ms wong is right- smiling solves alot of problems, more than words can.

how nice if everyone is extroverted and knows everyone else and is friends with everyone else