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was sucked into a whirlpool, struggling. Have now pulled myself out of the muck, legs, head and all, albeit a bit drippy...

the biggest ordeal is now almost over, followed by the second and third and fourth. things are becoming easier now. reports can be so overwhelming i cant taste food properly!

reali thankful for some of the frens who stuck up with me during the lousy time. sch work, suspicious mum, hurtful words, all dragged me down that i din feel much alive. bad thots sank in, gastric returned, tears dripped(ya, shocking), AND i couldnt taste! scary


today's all fine. lab went VERy smoothly, and i got the most beautiful crystals i lab! yay... the lousy project mates turned out to be jus damned cool and smart-aleckish, but all's fine if things are working out. starting to be amused and talkin to humans instead of machines(pressing buttons of lifts, working on comps, phone messenging, tapping ez link, little human contact) and humans ARE intersting. must be said they offer quite a rich library of entertainment, next to music and games.

next hurdle is to patch up with mum-angered her on her bdae shucks. how??