time to empty myself!

after a week of life...

memoirs of geisha is quite a read... after the special thanks to sayuri in front, turned out that no such woman existed! but enjoyed it nevertheless, and am quite amazed that i CAN acttuali read fast... it took me four days...

gonna watch a movie this week, ice age2. And probably have some nice food too, when j's ready. one more test tmr, and sem6 is almost over, till the finals.

1. genes shld be easy, and to prepare for it, do past papers and probably read thru the notes if time permits.
2. tm shld be ok, since its open book and only 30%-meaning my fate is already sealed anyway...
3. urops done! one down.
4. organo is scary... random rubbish, tts wad it is-RR
5. the thing pia-able now is lab!! k, i'll invest more in it then...

went to mml today to see the pple, and pnce again, w/o fail, the topic revolved around, ok, call them mr heli and mr deep. Mr deep is touted as one "who runs his entire life based on transactions", as wad p put it.

wasnt too bothered about talking to both of them initially, but over time, could feel myself squirm inside and wonder what it is that deep is asking for, or if heli has gone too far. THis is utterly bad. As much as i din wan to be influenced, and treat what i heard as jus small petty talk, i found myself dragged into the unpleasantness and foolishness of this ostracy.

first, wads all this crap bout badmouthing pple, and that of pple u'r almost always meet!
second, reali astonished at myself for having 'light ear roots', so easily swayed by words.
third, am amazed by the power of peer pressure, and the desperation to be in the main group. One person could just mention sthg about one of the two, and this can jus trigger the next ten bad things about both of them, puting them in such bad light i boubt the sun would help them at all.

reminds me of the stupid alienation in pri sch, and even jc. Childish crap. And here it is, now given the honrable name of politics. Aha. Ministers play with them like lego all the time.


two weeks of intensive report writing had stunted my written and spoken eng, i find. Have trouble bringing out the appropriate words, like picking the teeth after a meal of veg. Here i find them on the tip of my tongue, but somehow they would sound oddly fat and unpronounced.

reading's the best recuperating method. nv has failed me=)

celebration yest. thx mom.