freaky- twice in a day it happened. lab gang gathered ard table and talking about marriage, and i holding onto the fork and spoon, except that this time i froze in amazement, not wanting to talk my line, trying to break the spell. the second in hsing hai jus now, looking at the score and talking to km. even remember that i was freaked out in my dream cos it looked so familiar-hows tt?!- i dreamt that i freaked out cos that looked familiar! aND i WAs freaked out jus now. kao. all the while remembering that i was supposed to be anyway. the most recent time was last week, dinner with the gals. same table and pple. wads tt supposed to be?

anyway, real suay today. was late for training cos blardy bus made me wait for it for 20min. 95 was so damn slow-real tortoise no doubt- i waited close to 25min for it. 95 home was worse-30 min cos i missed two of them. then of course i was late again. then blardy bus home was another 15min. kao. spent 1.5h on waiting for transport-mind u, not the travelling time yet-which is 1/9 of my conscious time. wad a blardy waste. Hate travelling. muz get into hall soon. or else engage a chauffuer, but b4 tt turn rich first