been doing stupid blur things. like attending the wrong class and forgetting what i was gg to do 2 min ago. muz be the hexane.

have to consult 4 pple in my proj. sort of a good thing- nice to listen to views of wise pple and pinpoint difficult areas and try to learn along the way- but it can get exasperatating- when ur half boss goes overseas for a week and u panick and check his door everyday. feel inept at times- shld have jus graduated last mth. and then! my boss and shifu gg to leave in oct and end of mth resp(!), shifu for a yr(!!) and boss back in dec(!!!) how NICE! hope i dun screw up

din noe big shots get upset too. din think sgq will feel unrespected-shld have suspected it, always giving weird but funny pep talks- and laoshi and bosses. pple like to be liked.

jus dropped programin. o man. the lecturer is nice but has a weird lilt in her speaking, and she goes thru things all well and nice and slow, but boringlishly. too much codes? i was totally freaked out by her joke attempts- thot i was weird but turned out no one laughed, at least audibly or visibly- cos i din find it funny at all(!). i din even noe where was the punchline, couldnt even understd where it was headed at. decided cldnt quite click with SOCians so dropped the mod. plus the content is absolutely horrifying- shld get interesting later- things like class and compiler wadeva shit- same english words with different meanings in diff contexts. plus if i take tt up my tt totally shit cos tt alone takes up two freakin days of lab n tut- no time for expt liao- so. so now comfy and nice. proposal...